Friday, July 20, 2007

I miss Chad.

As some of you may know, Chad and I had a break-up, and it was fucking nasty. Basically it boils down, on my side of it, wanting to move to Chicago with my girlfriend, and the fact that he had broken up with his girl and was going through, what I felt, was an extremely angry phase. Chad ended up changing the locks, but still wanted me to pay for 2 months of rent while locked out. I could understand one month, but after the lock changing, everything fell apart.

For his part, I understand where he is coming from to an extent, but the lock change really altered my ability to see things rationally. After we had a blow up, he started calling my girlfriend's friends, attempting to damage the relationship. That was so far beyond the pale in my mind that the friendship had to end.

I still love the guy, probably more than almost every other person I know. He's fun beyond description, a super communicator, and has a heart of gold. There are some aspects to Chad that are so amazing, it's hard to put into words. On the flip side, he is often completely selfish to the point that he has left me downtown by my lonesome, without so much as a goodbye, though he was my ride.

It was hard to reconcile in my mind.

However, the older you get, the more you realize just how petty and insignificant these disputes are, and yet they so often rule our every decision.

But with age, I realize just how foolish we all are, and that the concept Jesus introduced, extending forgiveness and asking for it, are so vital to the evolution of man and our own happiness. So in this spirit, I extend my forgiveness to Chad, and humbly ask for his in return. The financial matters can always be hashed out, but the pain needs to dissipate 1st.

The point being, I love Chad like a brother. The ability to truly commiserate with someone on this fucked up world is something so rare that it shouldn't be tossed away like so much refuse. It should be respected by all.

So, in that spirit, Chad, I am sorry for all the pain and problems I caused you. In turn, I extend my forgiveness for all transgressions, real or imagined, that I felt from you.

Life is a 2 lane street, so let's work it out. Our times together should be cherished, not dismissed.

peace,

reeder